J's Today: I CAN'T MAKE A TURN??

hey friends, 

today was my third driving class and i can see some improvement like my legs aren't sore anymore after lesson, i can control the gas and brake better and i feel more confident sitting at the driver's seat. however, my only persistent problem is making a turn. i either turn my wheel too much or not turning my wheel enough. i still find it difficult to estimate how much i should turn my wheel whenever i want to make a turn. 

on another note, i finished brooklyn 99 in two weeks. it's crazy how consumed i was by this show. i can't remember the last time i finished watching a show. i didn't finish watching supernatural, or 2 broke girls, or how i met your mother but this show managed to interest me till the end. it does get more political as each season proceed and i love the way they make each problem into something easily digestible by the viewers. i especially like the episode 'he said, she said'. i am currently re-watching the show again hehe. i don't know what else to watch.

i recently went to the cinema with my cousins where we watched Insidious: Out Of The Further. i rate it 2/5. to me it's like every other insidious movie, it's really forgettable and doesn't have anything that could distinguish it from the other insidious movies.

that's all from me! please tell me you guys are having a way more fun week than me!

with love, j

Issue 05 - Why is only Kalimantan burning and not Sarawak, Sabah or Brunei?

The Borneo rainforest is one of the oldest and most diverse rainforest in the world and they are burning right now. They are purposely burning the rainforest for greed. Trees burned down, animals become homeless, people got sick from the toxic smoke from wildfires, all because of rich people's insatiable greed for wealth. 

The wildfire happening in Kalimantan, a part of Borneo Island, is not only caused by the El Niño. If that is the reason, then why isn't Sarawak, Sabah or Brunei burning too? We all know their government is purposely burning down their forest for palm oil plantations and mining. 

Beauty File 01 - My 2026 Daily Makeup

Hey bestfriend,

Ever since I came home from uni, I don't go outside much so there's no point to do a full glam when I go out. Thus, I try to keep my makeup minimal but still serving yk? I don't want to look like I put a lot of effort but I also don't want to look lifeless. So I figured this is the best routine for that!

All Things Beauty

Hey bestfriend, 

Whenever I look at old pictures of me and my makeup look bomb ass, I always wonder damn how did I achieve that look? Although I did the makeup by myself somehow I have already forgotten what products I use and the steps I take to get that look. Now I feel regretful for not filming a makeup tutorial or keep a note where I write my makeup steps. 

But that's okay!

Cause this page is made especially for that. So here is where I will share my daily makeup looks and the products I use. Just a disclaimer that I am not a professional makeup artist and I'm not claiming that my makeup skill is good this is just a silly way for me to archive my looks.

But not only that, I will also share the skincare and bodycare I use here. Basically, anything beauty-related will be posted here!

with love, j

J's Today: Jungle Trekking and Thai Tea

my family and i went for jungle trekking last weekend. it's not their first time but it is mine so i was prepared TO THE MAX. i brought a towel, a change of clothes, extra slipper and sunscreen which i lather an insane amount all over myself i started looking white. turns out i dont even need all of that suncreen cause the sun wasn't scorching hot at all. we got protected by the forest's canopy which made me realize how important our forest is to us and how they are very kind to protect us from the harsh sun, not just us but animals on the ground too. so yeah i'll be advocating for our forests from now on. not that i didn't before, but im gonna be more passionate about it this time. there was a waterfall too but we saw a snake so my mom freaked out and we had to go back immediately so yeah, we didn't play around near the waterfall, which was our intention in the first place, but sometimes it's not about the destination, it's the journey so i wasn't really bumped out. 

yesterday, my cousins and i drove one hour from our city to the suburb just to buy thai teas（˶′◡‵˶）. well, it was worth it because the thai tea is absolutely delicious megalicious! it almost tastes the same as cha tra mue's thai tea but bolder and less creamier. 

thai tea yayy!!!

my boyfriend birthday is coming up soon and we're ldr so i'll probably make a zine for him since we can't celebrate in person. i'm still looking for inspos on pinterest and instagram on how i should design a zine for his birthday. i hope he likes it. 

the weather's getting hotter and the haze is getting crazier day by day in malaysia so please take good care of your health, drink sufficient water and don't go out too much. i went out today for less than 2 hours and my throat already started to hurt.

i start my driving lesson next week! kinda nervous but also excited. i hope i dont hit anyone :/

that's all for this week! thanks for tuning in!

reminder: clean your water bottle

with love, j

Issue 04 - Songs That Genuinely Has A Kill Count

At my core, I have always been a sad girl. No matter how carefree and happy-go-lucky I seem, there's always this tiny part of me that is just inherently sad. I have more sad playlists than happy ones. I wrote countless of sad poems while my happy poems could be counted in one hand. It's strange but I'm the most creative when I'm sad cause that is when I feel inspired to create. To quote Richard Siken, "Because the language of joy is grunts and moans and the vocabulary of loss is the dictionary."

These are type of songs I play while getting ready in the morning without even giving the day a chance to be a good day. DO NOT play these songs around me if you don't want me to crash out. I wasn't kidding when I said these songs has a kill count! 

Issue 03 - Adult Friendship or Pure Disrespect? Let's talk about it.

I understand that in our 20's, we are more focused on our career or academics and it isn't rare that we neglect nurturing our friendships in the pursue of building a better future. People are busy. They don't have the luxury of time to go to a weekly hangout. Heck, sometimes they don't have time to send a simple text of 'How are you?' and that's okay cause less communication doesn't mean less love. 

And I get it. That's why I take no offense when my messages go unreplied for days or when they post on their social media but my messages are still on delivered. Sometimes people just don't have the energy to interact with you and it isn't that deep.

Issue 02 - Photobooths For Homebodies

Whenever I come to a new city, I always always always take a photobooth picture. Or, if I'm going out with friends, a trip to a photobooth is a cute addition to the hangout. It's my most favourite thing in the world! I get to wear cute headbands, do cool poses with friends and decorate the frame with stickers. It doesn't help that I'm such a sentimental girl so I always have to get a keepsake to remind me of a certain place or moment. 

Only downside of it is that it costs money. The cheapest strip is rm10 for 2 copies and the price can go up to rm30++ on some booths. 

So, I found some cute photobooth websites where you can take photos at home or bring your laptop/ipad to somewhere with a nice background and lighting and take your photos there...FOR FREE !!! YAYY!

J's Today: I went for my driving computer test

    last sunday i woke up bright and early to register for my computer test today (tuesday!) so i had the whole monday to study for this test. i want to past on my first try cause if i fail, i have to pay rm30 to retake the test and my mom was already putting pressure on me to pass it. 

    i was like, this test couldn't be That hard right???......right???? i mean it's common sense

WRONG!!!     

    i use this app called KPP Test to study. i just went straight to the theory test without studying beforehand the HUGE ASS textbook the school academy provided me with cuz honestly who has time for that? my test is LITERALLY TOMORROW. 

    so my first attempt, 53/70 FAILED (the passing mark is 56/70)

    my second attempt, 51/70 EVEN LESS THAN MY FIRST ATTEMPT

    so yeah i was a little humbled by this test hehehe so i locked in. i analyze my mistakes and the part i got the most mistakes was section A which is the road & traffic signs...oops. in my defense, i answer everything right for road signs i usually see in my state, the road signs for the peninsular are something i am not familiar with. so that is a huge disadvantage in itself. 

    and i STILL wouldn't open my textbook cause i couldnt be bothered lmaoo what i did was i kept retaking every set, and there were 7 (seven) sets altogether, until my score is nothing below 65/70. i did this all evening and by the time it was 8pm, the words on the screen started to jumble together and it felt like i couldn't understand the malay language lol.

    once i familiarized myself with the test, my average comes up to 62 which i was so happy and content with. i took it as a good sign that i will past my test the next day. then, i logged into the KPP4U website (the website they gave us to try and answer the trial test which they say 95% similar to the actual test) and answered the trial tests (we were given 5 credits so we can do the trial test 5 times). i scored even better!!! this is so hot girl behaviour ><  i was confident that everything was going to go well.

    WRONG!!! AGAIN!!!

    and so today at 8am, i was already up, had gotten ready and i was ready to go to my test venue and guess fucking what? i had forgotten my wallet, which contained my ID, in the family car that my mom took to work! so yeah i had to come to my mom's workplace to fetch my wallet and only then could i go for my test. 

    i made my sister and cousins accompany me for moral support and BOY WAS I GRATEFUL FOR IT cuz i scored 68/70 !!!! YAYYY!! PASSED ON MY FIRST TRY!!! honest review: it was really easy and most of the questions are the same as the practice & trial questions. 

    so yeah! im so excited for the next step and finally getting my license. thanks for reading along until here and stay tune for my driving lessons update <3 praying it goes well *fingers crossed*

with love, j

Issue 01 - A Day To Celebrate You and Your Girlfriends

1st of August. Girls are waiting for their flowers and a cute little appreciation post on social media from their partner. Some get it while some don't. To those who get it, we're happy you are loved. To those who don't, it's okay; it doesn't mean you're not loved. We can all agree that social media has done irreversible damage to how we base our self-worth on how much our partners are willing to do for us. 

Let's start treating and loving ourselves the way we want to be treated and loved. Make this the year of loving yourself so much you won't see a necessity for romantic love. 

So....no flowers? no boyfriend? no romantic dinner for two? Nothing's wrong with that. Let's put men aside; here are 4 things you can do to celebrate yourself and your girlfriends on National Girlfriend's Day.